I Am A Filmmaker

I am a filmmaker. 

Today, God told me that I am afraid. I am afraid to confidently claim an integral part of myself that has been inside me since I can remember. I tell stories and my most favorite way to bring a story to life is through a camera lens. I struggle to claim this part of myself because I often feel like I need permission to truly believe it and evidence as proof. 

I don’t need permission. I am a filmmaker. I made a dope and divine film with my friends who are also gifted filmmakers and storytellers. And this film is currently on view at the North Carolina Museum of Art through February. 

This isn’t my first. I’ve been documenting life and making movies since I was a kid. Sometimes I bury that fact but every now and again my Spirit brings forth all of the memories & reminders that signal to me I’ve been set on this path for a long time. I’ve taken classes and produced short docs. I’ve worked for film festivals and been in the room with filmmakers that I look up to. I’ve made films in my dreams. And Memory is Ritual is one of them.

Anyway, this post is really for me. I am sharing this as a reminder for myself to not be afraid of who God has made me to be and who I am becoming. I contain multitudes. This is a part of my practice to face myself fully and to believe Her. 

*Image by Kai Jullian Photography